if only i could be a blogger. - blog nine

Blogging for me is something that I don’t think I can ever be good at. Why is it you may ask that I have an issue with blogging? (a real question)  Well I feel like sharing my thoughts and ranting about how I feel and volunteering my social comments just isn’t always the best idea because either their not always appropriate or they don’t really matter all that much (Simple compound sentence connected with and’s). With that being the said I think I can confidently add blogging to the list of things I won’t be doing as a career choice, or that I will be choosing to do on my own. However, as much as I don’t connect with blogging, I do think that writing for yourself to clear up those thing in which you might share in your blog can be beneficial (use of however).   I write all the time for my own benefit but I think the difference is I know no one is going to see it, and that makes me far more comfortable than knowing that anyone can read it (use of than). That’s probably what’s at the core of my insecurities with blogging or any type of visual presentation of my writing really is: I can’t control the way it’s interpreted. When I’m ranting, raving and sorting out what I’m thinking I think that for the most part that I should figure out what out all those things are and what they mean and my position before I allow someone else to try to figure it out . I think that’s only fair (Long Sentence followed by a short sentence??). I think it’s brave that someone can share their thoughts then sit and wait for someone to comment on it or make an opinion on it because I know I just get far too anxious (use of then). How does anyone get past that anxiety? How does anyone open themselves up to that? (Rhetorical question) I guess that’s the real issue- not knowing how the effects of opening yourself up to those you don’t always know (using a dash for emphesis?).  I guess I can continue talking in circles about my insecurities with my writing being read and my thoughts being analyzed, but the fact still remains blogging and I we don’t stand hand in hand. We stand more toe to toe locked in some sort of battle to see who can come out on top, and I never seem to be able to win.   

  

its blog eight.

I can’t seem to find a piece of writing to revise or revisit for this week’s blog. I can no longer stare at my past works, a black and white jumbled pile of letters, trying to manipulate them into being something better than what they are now (Appositive phrase offset by comas and a Participial phrase ) . That’s not saying that they are already perfect, because that would be far from the truth, but instead I believe I am say that my mid semester burn out has seem to hit me this morning and my brain has gone blank. I now find myself- a blank chaotic mess- writing down this piece trying to capture all of this week POWS while also seriously reassessing my life(Appositive phrase offset by dashes). It seems like it’s a really serious task reassessing my entire life, but I have come to the point where I don’t believe I have very much energy left and new life goals are in order. If I’m being honest here, I also think I’m being a little lazy and bitter (a deadly combination) due to the fact that editing everyone else’s papers is my job, so trying to build up the energy to rework my own words and thoughts has become nearly impossible (Appositive phrase offset by parenthesis).  My brain, fading and lost, has lost all hope in productivity in pretty much any realm today and so I find myself in a very cynical and pointless state of being today (Adjectives out of order).  I also feel as though I am looking out for the well being of the on viewers here:  you really wouldn’t want to read about how the individual functions within a larger group as through the lens of the seven different novels I’ve read this semester (Appositive phrase offset by a colon?). You also probably wouldn’t want to reread my Dora piece, nor would you care to relook at my goals, so in all actuality I think I may be doing you all a bigger favor than I am doing myself.  So we will chalk this blog as a benefit to not only my mental health but possibly for yours as well and here's hoping I have more energy tomorrow.